Zaharah felt her head was spinning as the sedation was too strong for her to cope. As she regains her consciousness she blinks her eyelids for several times and then she realised she was lying on the hospital bed. "Adam" she cried and then she sit up and saw a drip line has been inserted in her vein. "Zaharah...he's fine." Zaharah turn and it was Ana as she stood up and caresse her hair and face. Then Zaharah felt empty...like something was not right about her. With tears in her eyes she stammered and ask. "My baby?" Ana could not bear to watch Zaharah's sadness...slowly she shakes her head.
"No! No...! They can't do this to me...it's my baby....my life...! Why? Why are you being unfair to me...Oh God...Why are you punishing me this way? screamed Zaharah as she becomes aggressive and starts to bang the cotside of the bed...and then she took the plastic cup and bowl and threw them violently on the floor. Zaki came in trying to hold her down. However upon seeing his face had really sets Zaharah's anger and she scream and shout."Get out..out all of you...leave me alone..." soon the nurses came with the doctor and injected her with a sedation to calm her down."Leave me alone...just go...!" cried Zaharah and soon her restlessness was subdue and she fall back into unconscious state. Zaki watch all the torment which Zaharah just gone through and it pains his heart.
"I've committed so many sins....thinking that after I've get my fair share of revenge will content
me but ....it seems this guilt is beginning to be eating me up alife...and it hurts." cried Zaki talking to himself as he was sitting by Adam's side who was still in coma state. Suddenly he felt someone had touches his shoulder....he turn and it was Ana.
"It's never too late to set things straight again..if you really wants to repent and goes back to the straight path. Cause God is all Knowing and Forgiving." exclaimed Ana as she wipe the tears on Zaki's eyes. As Zaki enters Zaharah's room he saw Zaharah was crying all by herself. He felt confused and he was afraid to face her.
"I've decided to surrender myself to the cops...and face the justice." said Zaki as he stood by Zaharah's bedside. Zaharah remains silence but Zaki could see so much anger and hatred in her eyes. "I'm not going to press charges agaisnt you Zaki...you do not have to worry about that cause I'm going to make your life a living hell. Haven't I told you before...I can be someone who you can never imagined. You shall live with this torment and guilt for the rest of your life." replied Zaharah as she look straight in his teary hazel brown eyes. Fear sets in Zaki's mind. It was not about his ownself ,but he had turn Zaharah to become such a revengeful person....just like him.
"Please don't say that Zaharah....don't fall and be like me." replied Zaki as he try to coax her down.
"No...I'm not becoming like you...I'm going to be someone whole lot worst than you. Now leave!" said Zaharah coldly. Zaki looks at Zaharah...and all the love and jovial looks on her face has been diminished and were replace with hatred and anger. Zaki walks out of the room and he felt that no matter what he does or say will never redempt Zaharah's hatred towards him.
The next day Zaharah was discharged, however she headed back towards Adam's room. She walks slowly towards him. She kisses his forehead and lips. "I'm going to make him pay for what he did to you." muttered Zaharah to herself. No...she's not going to fall again....this time things will definately going to change. She stay by his side until late in the evening. Just then Ana came and she saw Zaharah had fallen asleep by Adam's side. Zaharah sense there's someone else in the room and when she wakes up she saw Ana by her side. "I have been waiting for you at home...why did'nt you come back?" asked Ana.
"I belong here ma...by Adam's side." replied Zaharah.
"Aden he's waiting for you at home....he misses you...both of you." said Ana hoping Zaharah will listen to her pleas and go back home to take a break.
"Thanks to your son..!" replied Zaharah with such a cold tone in her voice. Ana was not surprised with her response. She knew how much Zaharah had felt....almost losing her husband and now losing her child is really too much for her to take.
"Zaharah...I know this is hard on you....I can feel your anger and your sorrow cause I just lost the love of my life not so long ago..and now my son is fighting for his life..and my other son was lost in his own guilt." replied Ana. " Zaharah we are both dealing with the same thing....please don't fill your heart with so much sorrow and hatred cause it will burn you. Let's face all these together as a family."
Zaharah stared hard towards Ana and then she look at Adam. How much he misses his laughter, his voice, his touch...everything. "Adam please come back to me. I miss you so much and it's killing me." whispered Zaharah. Ana decides to leave them alone. She stood up and kisses Adam's forehead and Zaharah's cheeks. Zaharah smile faintly and watches as Ana left the room.
"I remember the first time when I met you...actually I have fallen for you...it sound silly but it was love at first sight. The way you love to stare at things with your wondering look and the way you had keep your fringe until it touches your brow and now almost covering part of your face...it is beautiful. You does know how to make me laugh and smile. You make me whole again...!" and then she stops as she wipe her tears off her face and stared blankly towards Adam. She was about to leave to get herself a cup of coffee at the nearby cafeteria when suddenly she saw Izaldeen stood at the corridor looking sadly at her. Zaharah decides to ignore him and walk straight ahead away from him. "Please let me talk to you." pleads Izaldeen holding on to his sister's arm. She remains silence not wanting to look at his face."Zaharah..I came here to seek you and Adam's forgiveness." Zaharah stared hard towards him and then she pull his hands and forcefully drags him into Adam's room. "Go! Go!...Go ahead and seek for his forgiveness...! Take a look at him Izaldeen...he's fighting hard to live.." shouted Zaharah as she could not contain her anger any longer. Izaldeen stood frooze with tears welling in his eyes. "Alright you want me to forgive you...sure do something for me..!" exclaimed Zaharah looking intensely at Izaldeen. Izaldeen shake his head as he could not believe his little sister whom he had always love and adores has change so much.
"Zaharah!" he utters.
"I want you to kill Zaki....do it..finish him off then all will be forgotten." cried Zaharah.
"No..I can never do that again.....not anymore...! I've destroyed the one who I've always love and I can't do that again." replies Izaldeen.
"You're a coward." yelled Zaharah on top of her voice.
"Zaharah ...I don't want you to end up like me....! Do you think Adam will be happy with your choice of killing his own brother?" answered Izaldeen trying to calm Zaharah down. Zaharah becomes speechless after hearing those words from Izaldeen. She look at Adam who was still lost in his own world of pain and darkness. And then slowly she face Izaldeen again with revengefulness written in her doe eyes.
"Fine...then I shall do it myself." and she walks out of the room and leave Izaldeen alone by Adam's side.
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