Canvas Thee Thoughts :

 

“Hope you like this new accommodation..” said Orion as he showed Ezra his room which was located nearer to the botanical park.

Ezra paced along the room with non interest screen on his face, however as he realised the botanic vicinity just a feet away from his room, his eyes had lit up. He look at both of us with a meek smile and a nod.

“A good sign..” rant my thoughts.

“I shall leave you two here..” said Orion and then he left.

Ezra look at me with such a wondrous yet hauntingly beautiful gaze. Suddenly he held out his hand in wanting me to held out to him. I took his hand and slowly he brings me closer next to his side.

“Sumaiyah.. this is our home..” he speaks.. he finally spoken.

“Yes it is.. it is..” I said blissfully as I lay my head upon his shoulder 

Orion was right, significantly Ezra has beginning to regain back his mind and soul, even though his not remembering most of them, but I’m thankful for all that been canvassing his thoughts are just the beautiful memoirs of us and his love ones.

“Like I said, you are Ezra’s hope..and I strongly believe the spirit of Habil will be enlightened by this..” said Orion with a smile. His magnificent flairs is so likeable He is indeed my advisor, he’s just like an elder brother whom I respected and look high upon to.

“Thank you Orion for everything..” I said as I kiss him lightly on his cheeks. In an instance he smile meekly and blushes.

 Becoming Ezra’s wife has indeed been quite a challenge for me, for my heart still belongs to Habil and I agree to this therefore I could always be there for him, like how we used to be. However I was amazed with Ezra’s patience and understanding upon my feelings. He doesn’t demand, he never force me to accept him as whole.

However, during one of those quite autumn evening, I just felt his nearness and his presence seems to be calm and captivating. He was still engrossing reading his book about roses and buds as I amble closer and then I playfully sat on his lap. He looked stunned and kind of cute. He place his book at the corner of our bed and then he gently caresses my face. Bringing his lips closer to mine, he begins to work his wonders with them, making me squirm and lightly moan with pleasure. Our love making was indeed beautiful and profoundly amazing. 

“I’m lost in the mist but I’ve found you among the dew…thank you Sumaiyah for making me whole again..”

Canvas Thee Thoughts : Adrift Beyond Parallel

“You can’t lock me in here forever Reem. I can’t take this anymore..Reem! I’m your father for God’s sake..” yelled Ariel. I had my chilling glare upon him as I stood outside of the experiment room, which he and his friends Aaron and Maxim had build beforehand. My heart has indeed turns blizzard just the thought of him.

“Oh daddy, do appreciate my kindness.. I’m not torturing you, I’m healing you..” I utters coldly. And upon that note. I released the fumes enclosing the entire room which he was lock in. Ariel begins to cough in such a frantic and chocking motion. He fell on his knees with both his hands clasping his neck, in desperation grasping for air.

“Reem..” he cried in despair. 

I remained unmoved by his pleadings. However my tears begins to break.

“I’ve lost everyone that’s so close and dear to me…” I cried.

“Reem..please forgive me..” pleads Ariel as he crawls on all limbs to get himself closer to the glass panel.

“Reem..” mutters a voice. “It’s time to let go....”

“We fall into his lair.. we were all taken in by his flair words of hope and dream. I was such a fool..” state Orion solemnly.

“Why do we all need to be the victims for all the terrible deeds which both our father did?” I exclaimed. “Five years had passed but my scars is still hurting that were left to bleed…”

Remembering that rancorous tragedy back that, is just like a whirl of cyclone raging in my head. Ezra survive, but what is left is just his form not his spirit. He’s forgotten everything, his past, his love ones, throughout those five years had passes all he could ever remember is him being a botanists.

To my disgust, Orion survived that battle. He was in deep coma due to severe drug potion overdose. The urge of me wanting to end his life was extremely tenacious. And I know, with just a dose of this rancid drug which I would infuse inside his vein will finally put to an end to his ‘suffering’.

However, just before I was about to jab in the drug, suddenly he begins to stir and moan. “Father..I’m not taking this anymore..” his face squirm and frown in so much fear and pain.

“I’m ending your suffering .. so just hush now..” I said chillingly.

“Who the hell are you?” He asked looking so tense and disoriented. “Where am I?”

“Screw you..” I snarled as I hurled towards him with the needle in my hand.

Orion was swift and strong enough to avoid my attack, as he caught both of my hands and in a swift he had pulled me closer to his bed and pushed me on top of it, pinning himself against me.

“Let go of me you bastard..” I yelled.

“I don’t know who you are lady.. and if I ever hurt you ..please forgive me..” he mutters and slowly he released his grasp and help me up.

“What do you remember then?” I asked grimly.

“He said, he knew where my father is?” Replied Orion.

“Maxim your father?” I asked.

“Yes.. do you know where he is?” Replied Orion enthusiastically.

I stared at him sorrowfully as I felt sorry for him, for I knew, he too has been drugged just like Habil and Ezra, fall victim by Ariel’s lies and deceitful intentions.

“Maxim is dead, few years back in this lab due to his own flaws of concoction which he brew himself. Didn’t Ariel mention to you about that?” I answered coldly.

“Ariel..” he cried with a grimace look of pain mark on his face. “I remember him..he told me lots of things about my father..he promised he will bring me to meet my father. However on that day, after I took that coffee which he made, suddenly I felt like I’m not being myself.. I felt I’ve lost control of my thoughts ..I’m not remembering anything…” mutters Orion tearfully.

“Have I hurt someone? Or worst have I taken someone’s life?” He cried.

“What is done can’t be undone.. we fall to be their victims.. as time goes by, you will recall back what you’ve did..” I said. As I was about to leave the room he lightly tugged my hand and had his eyes looking intensely towards me.

“I’ve no one.. I’m helpless now..” he utters.

“Do I have a choice..?” I mutters.

“Reem..”cried Ariel in desperation.

“That’s should be enough Reem..” marks Orion.

“I’m wiping out his memories..that’s the best I can do..for all I want is for him to taste his own medicine..and it’s for his own good. Therefore when he comes round, he will come clean without any tinge of guilt ridden memoirs canvassing upon his thoughts.” I mutters grimly.

Orion amble closer towards me as he place his hand upon my shoulder and held on to it intensely.

“Don’t fall in becoming like him Reem..” he said solemnly. “Don’t let the souls of your love ones to bleed seeing you like this..”

“Habil..” I sighed to myself.

“Ezra survive that’s hope.. you survive you are his hope…” state Orion. “Stop clinging to those that had passed..”

“He survived, he’s in presence but yet so distant..” I said solemnly.

“Probably your fear he senses?” Replied Orion.

I looked at him soberly.

“I guess having you around does seems to glimmer that noun hope back in my soul…” I said. “You really reminds me of Habil.. it seems that his spirit been reincarnated back in you. I know I sound crazy…” I said with depth thoughts about Orion. My perspectives upon him change after slowly knowing and taking in his traits. He seems to be someone gifted with intelligence yet humble. The anger and hatred which I used to felt for him begins to be thinning away, in each and passing day throughout those years of our acquaintance. I’ve stopped blaming him for all that has been done, for he too fall in becoming the victim of Ariel terrifying and brutal drug and the tank treatment which Ezra was place into. Orion lost his true self for he was reborn to be a barbaric and cruel form. 

During both Orion and Ezra rehabilitation, I had managed to gather Habil’s and Aaron’s crews in helping me to bring both their senses and memories back.

Using the full antidote which we manage to cultivate from Habil’s formula and concoction, Orion had showed so much significant progress. I was surprised by his gentle compose mannerism and his gifted knowledge. However for Ezra, despite all the efforts and trials, nothing seems could bring himself back. Ezra lost in his own world, not wanting to speak to anyone and refuse  any close encounter with anyone. And this has ultimately breaks my heart.

“Since those formulas, potions and what so ever cocktails doesn’t work anymore, why not we could immerse ourselves  in his world..” suggested Orion.

I looked at him with an earnest sign of hope.

“It’s just a suggestion..” he marks with a smile.

Canvas Thee Thoughts: Execute Thee Pride

 

Ariel tilted the table which I was laid upon and to my surprise he release my tied up limbs by pushing a button from the side of the ceramic table, causing me to  fall sprawling on the floor. 

However, an intimidating fear overcome my courage when there stood a shadow of a familiar form and to my horror, it was Orion.

“He’s supposed to be dead?” I cried frantically.

“Hmmm.. ain’t that a surprise tragic for you?” Utters Orion in such a chilling note. “I’ve jabbed myself with the concoction which my father had created..therefore the poison which killed my foe doesn’t even bite me..”

“Dad..please..!” I plead tearfully.

In a flash, Orion roughly pulled me up and flung me hard towards the other side of the room, causing me to fall tumbling back and forth. Without mercy he kicked me hard upon my abdomen and my back, causing me to wrench and squirm in pain.

“Stop this..” roared Ezra as he too struggled to get his hands free from being clipped and secured.

To my sorrow, Ariel was gleaming with joy seeing all the battered and suffering which me and Ezra were forced to endure. How could my dad greed would overcome his humanity? Was this how my mum was made to suffer under his care? Aaron had indeed to the right thing..

I used all my limbs to crawl my form away from this barbaric being, however I felt my body was pulled closer to his form and in that brim moment, he turn me over therefore I could look at him. The horrific lustful smile rant on his face. In ferocious note, I used all my strength to get myself away from him, but I was not strong enough to fight him off, as he begins to terrorise my lips and body with his brutal kisses and petting. 

“Dad help me?” I begged and I scream. “Please don’t..”

Suddenly a loud shattering glass could be heard followed by a thundering roared of anger. It was Ezra. What could have possibly happened? Was it due to the mist form which Ariel had infused him with had cause the physical charges upon Ezra. If that’s the case I’m totally glad it happened.

Before Ariel could even retaliate, Ezra had pounced on him and Ariel’s neck in between his fingers. Chocking him until Ariel fell on his knees in pain and agony.

“Ezra..please don’t..” I begged.

Ezra stopped when Ariel fell limpy by his feet. Orion soon realised his associates has fallen, he forcefully drag me to another enclosing room and locked both of us inside.

“Let me undone you first before, I finished off your lover..” snarled Orion. Upon that moment, he slammed me hard upon the concrete floor…and I know this time, I’m not capable enough to fend myself. 

The horrific bang of the metal door doesn’t ditter his brutal intention, as he begins to undress and tearing part of my blouse apart, causing me to tear in fear and shame.

“Reem..” my name was called.

“Ezra..” the only whispering note which I could utter.

“You will remember me for this bitch..” roared Orion. 

I was shutting my eyes as I begins to accept this tormenting fate when suddenly, I felt a sense of lightness, as in between my conscious  and subconscious state, I saw Ezra coming forward. In a swift he ferociously pulled Orion away from me and threw him upon the concrete wall.

“It’s impossible for you to beat me..” roared Orion as he charged towards Ezra but in a swift Ezra caught him

in between his arms, interlocking his neck and his upper limbs. Orion struggle in horror as he realised he’s on the losing side. His eyes widen in fear as he fought and hassle to grasp an energy of air to breath.

“You killed my brother, you killed my father and what you trying to do to Reem is beyond redemption..” cried Ezra with fury of vengeance rule in his tone.

“Ezra....” I mutters as I crawl towards his knee holding on to him. “Don’t fall and faltered like them..”

Ezra slowly release his grip and fell by my side. Orion laid probably lifeless, with his eyes broad open. His mouth was forming probably due to the drug which he had foolishly injected himself with.

I held on to Ezra in my arms. He was in so much pain for his cold body shakes and shiver in between my arms. 

“Used the hairpin to unravel the pure antidote only in desperate situation..” rant my thoughts when suddenly I recalled what Habil had wrote in his pocket book. The beautiful embroidery hairpin which he had gifted me for our wedding. Without wasting another second, I removed the hairpin from my hair and carefully piece just a tiny part of it upon Ezra’s pointer finger.

The warmth came back to his form, the color of hope engulf and embrace Ezra much to my relieved.

“You alright?” He asked meekly. I nodded my head tearfully. 

“It’s finally over..rest now Ezra..” 

Canvas Thee Thoughts : Second Sight

“Such a wondrous and pleasurable moments been back here again, in this magnificent lab of ours.” State a voice in such dignify state of haughtiness. It was Ariel much to my dismay.

“Dad! What is the meaning of this? Why are you doing this to us?” I asked.

Ariel came closer towards me and in a split moment he grab my face with his hand, squeezing my cheeks roughly in between his fingers.

I whimper as I struggle to get his hands off from my face.

“You are a mistake. You shouldn’t be in our picture..” he cried and then he loosen his grip.

“Kill me then, if that what’s makes you feel so whole and superior again..” I challenge him.

“No sweetheart.. what kind of father would I be then if I were to kill my one and only blood line..” rant Ariel much to my disgust. “Let me recall back my past so I could elaborate to both of you what kind of lives me, Aaron and Maxim been leading, therefore both of you can judge who’s the wrongdoer ones.”

“Believe it or not we’ve been friends ever since high school. However of all the three of us, I’m indeed the special one. That means I’m the genius, I’m among the top student. Unlike them, the foundation ones. Despite all of my superior qualities, I was often outcast probably due to my hellish mental unstableness. Therefore I’m blessed with only Aaron and Maxim as my companion throughout our school and college days.”

“I know what my father did to you is unforgivable..punish me if that’s what will fulfill your vengeance, please leave Reem out of  this. She doesn’t know and wasn’t involved in any part of it.” Pleads Ezra with such grimace mark of pain in his tone.

“Hush Ezra… I’m coming to that excited part but not too soon..” exclaimed Ariel followed by a mocking laughter. 

“Me and Aaron had actually got the oracle structure of an antidote, the cure to be precise. Our ultimate intention was of course to heal the sick, name any viruses or diseases, our antidote just might give them hope to live on.” Continues Ariel and then he paused. The sadness of dismay was seen faintly on his face. “However, Maxim’s greed seems to over rule our main objective.”

“Unknowingly he’s been harvesting his own concoction without our knowledge. And as per normal and also due to my mental health issue, I was used as their lab rat, taking in whatever doses of potions jab inside my vein. Hmmm the extreme satisfaction..for it does slowly healing my mind. I feel more at ease of myself. Until one day, Aaron in a haste of excitement had accidentally jab me with Maxim’s rancid potion despite Maxim warning Aaron not too, but it was already too late..”

“And the consequences which I’m force to face and endure is killing me inside out. The throbbing pain on my head and the blood that runs through my veins becoming such a torturous notion breaking my soul. After figuring out his error, Both Aaron and Maxim had tried again and again to reverse back the horrific effects which I was force to endure. Tragically it was all in vain. My mental state becoming more unpredictable…I’m becoming more violent and my thought seems to be incoherent with my actions.”Exclaimed Ariel and then he stopped for a moment. “Aaron sent me off to the asylum…without my knowledge and my permission. And the reason, because they couldn’t find that perfect antidote to cure me. Aaron and Maxim have destroyed me, my life, my dreams..everything.”

“I served my time well there..concluding my chapter will end there, however only after several years had passed, Aaron came back bringing along his son Habil.”

“Such a fine looking boy he got..very well mannered, intelligent, and an astounding scientist…which strangely Aaron  decided to hushed Habil’s exact profession.” Marked Ariel with a smirk. “Habil.. such a noble lad with a kind heart but too easily get fooled and manipulated. Unlike Ezra, despite his not too bright academically but he’s more wise and conscious choosing people surrounds him..”

“That’s why you drugged Habil?” I cried.

“Oh yes.. tsk tsk..by sucking the toffee which I kindly offered him, had definitely screwed his mind upside down..” mark Ariel with a shrewd smile.

“How could you?” 

“Well the simplest reason is, I wanted to get rid of him, and from that time on, I had already knew, Habil and Ezra had eventually found the formula for the antidote. Hmmm, but he’s too determined to stay on with the love of his life. How lame and stupid he was. So I had no choice but to plan some tragic event. The robbery scene. Ohh.. too coincidence right?” Cried Ariel as he laughed in such hysterical manner.

“Despite all my torturous techniques and abused which I’ve used upon Ezra came to no dead end, that’s why you are needed here. And I do believe, you the widow of late Habil sure know a thing or two about that antidote.”

“Why is that so important to you?” I asked.

“To regain and retain back my name and glory, my wealth and my dignity..”

“Dignity? You are a sick man? You drugged Habil to hurt me.. and here you are talking about your dignity which in fact you have prejudice mine..” I roared tearfully.

“Ah!Ah!No drama..” he warned and in a split second he had came over to Ezra’s tank and switch on a button by the side of the tank which causes the green liquid to fumes in thin misty form.

Ezra screamed in agony much to my horror.

“This is just a small dose of that defective formula been slowly infuse inside Ezra’s skin.. I reassured you just the superficial part. Does this motivates you Reem?”

“Reem.. don’t give in to his request…for Habil’s sake, please don’t let him die in vain..” moan Ezra tearfully much to my despair.

Upon hearing those words, Ariel had seems to pushed on another button turning the mist into a thicker form.

Ezra whole body shake in such aggressive convulsions. His icy blue eyes had turned to darker ocean blue..his sharp features had turned into some kind of a demonic form.

In fear and anxiety I cried. “Alright father.. I will give you the formula..but you need to stop hurting Ezra..please.”

Immediately, he switched both buttons off and he slower amble to me and gently caress my cheeks. “That’s my girl..for good daughter follow orders. But I’m not a fool which you might think that I’m used to be. I believe you only know half of the antidote while Ezra got the other half.. therefore to complete the concoction both need to comply, seems Ezra not too willing to surrender his part, I need to improvise certain scores so he will finally talked.” Upon that Ariel laughed crudely with a menacing look mark on his face..

Canvas Thee Thoughts : Smouldering Under Toe

“Seeing you in such calm and tranquility manner had simply ease me with such an unspoken joy.” Said Ariel stunning me away from my daze.

“Dad..” I mutters in a brim.

“So you ready taking in the big leap then?” He asked.

“I guess it’s about time dad.. I’m not letting Habil’s and Ezra’s hope and dreams down again. Though I feel it’s kind of funny, why Aaron had choose me to lead his firm instead of his sons.”

“Because of Anna Maya..he owns her big time.” Chuckles my dad. “To redeem his guilt and sin for breaking our family apart.. but I guessed it’s the best for all of us..”

“Another thing dad.. about Ezra. I’m not ready to give my heart to anyone .. maybe not ever..” I marked my stance as I interlock my fingers upon my wedding ring with Habil.

“Of course my dear, but for the best of everyone else, you ought to tell him that yourself.” Said my dad as he took his steps and leave.

It’s been almost a year since Habil’s passes, but yet the memories seems so yesterday.

“Reem..I can fully understand if that’s what you’ve decided..” utters Ezra solemnly.

I gaze upon his presence. His resemblance to Habil is simply breathtaking. But to reclaim my heart towards him is yet impossible.

We had our coffee leisurely by the garden right after dinner. Surprisingly my dad had joyfully decides to brew that significant beverage himself.

I took few sips of it, the delicate fine taste of that bitter  sweetness latte had simply arisen my senses.

“Sumaiyah..” stutter Ezra as he felt faint and collapsed right beneath my feet.

“Ezra, what’s happening?” I cried in alarm and in that few seconds I too feel lightheaded and fell right next to him, struggling with all my nerves and guts to stay conscious.

Upon that moment, I saw a figure hovering slowly towards us. In my midst of not wanting to give in to a slumber after been drugged, which I believe cause by that latte, I saw that crude menacing smile drawn on his face. It was my father.

“Dad..” I whispered in a shocking agony tone.

“Shush now my princess..I’m doing this for our own good..” exclaimed my father as he daintily stroking my head, making me feel kind of draggy and dopey.

The coldness of the marble ceramic table had indeed wakes me up from my unconscious state. To my fear, all my limbs has been strapped upon the end corners of the table. My eyes lingers wildly upon the surroundings and soon I begin to realise, I was held and kept in some kind of a laboratory. 

In the lab there were few huge tank which could fit in an adult person. I strained my sight as Ezra came to my thoughts upon that moment, when suddenly a figure had caught my glimpse.

“Ezra..” I utters in anguish and fear. He was fully unconscious and his hands were tied up upon the top corner of the tank. Almost half of his body was submerged in a chemical like liquid in the tank. 

“Ezra..” I shouted his name hoping my calling will break his mind free from the state that he’s in. “Ezra..” I yelled again as I struggle and wriggle myself upon the table.

Ezra stirs and groans as he begins to regain his senses much to my relief. 

“Reem..” he cried weakly.

“That doesn’t sound good..” I thought to myself with such a sinking hope draining my soul.

Canvas Thee Thoughts : Fallen Uphold

  A month has passes on. I’m healing but I’m left with tormenting scars deep within my soul. To recoup back the full spirited courage was impossible. What spirit am I left with? I hated myself for becoming like this. Despite putting up the upfront shield of acceptance and calmness when I’m in the crowd, but the pang of sorrow and guilt clamped me when I’m alone.

Sitting by the balcony recalling back the togetherness when I’m with Habil. The laughter, the giggles, the tears …the love we had made. I clenched my fist close to my chest, as tears begins to well in my eyes.

“You came back..” I said.

You held out your hand awaiting mine to held on to yours. As you took my hand you bring me towards your work desk. And then you just stood there with your back facing me. I held you closed to me, feeling the warmth of your presence. You turn and gave me a wondrous smile and then you place your hands upon our wedding photo which you had place on the desk. The urgency message was clearly seen on your face.

“Habil.” I said as I woke up in a stunned note. I must have fallen asleep on the sofa which was place by the balcony. Rubbing my eyes as I felt kind of groggy but my heart bores the listless notion. “What are you trying to tell me?” I mutters as I clench my temple with both my hands. The throbbing pain upon my head seems to be getting more frequent now. Blame myself for opting away from those medications which Habil used to prescribe me with. I felt it’s no longer an obligation task for me now. For I knew taking those medications will only brushed away my memories of him. I can’t let that happen, and I won’t let it happen.

I had my eyes fixed intensely towards my wedding photo and carefully I removed the frame. To my surprise, there was a tiny pocket book which was precision place in between the frame and the photo. I sat on the bed taking the book along. 

I held it close to my heart, as my tears begin to well. In a few moment, I turn to the first page.

“Aaron my dad had requested me to protect her Reem Sumaiyah her name and fate definitely was on our side. As she was looking for a private nurse to look after Aaron, Aaron prompted me to take that part.

“I knew what Ezra up to.. despite he wasn’t aware I’m his brother, but a duty is a duty. Sumaiyah is under my care and protection, punching him on his nose well,  I truly believe he deserve more punches than that..hmm” I smile with amusement upon reading that.

“He called me Sumaiyah. No one calls me that before.” I thoughts to myself with a grin.

“She is more beautiful in person. Her eyes which shows so much sadness is somehow or rather mesmerising to my soul. But again, protecting her is my task. I need to put aside all those inclinations of feelings and emotions.”

“You sound just like a true soldier.” I chuckled. “You can just tell me you in love with me silly.”

I flipped the last writing of him and something had definitely caught my attention. 

“I’ve finally found the antidote, but only Ezra know the formula and we swore and place an oath, no one to have it. Ezra took the antidote and miraculously he seems to heal so much better than we had ever expected.”

“I swear I didn’t meant to hurt Sumaiyah. Something had taken control of my body and my soul. I never expected myself to be such a barbaric beastly being. Her cries and pleading just breaking me apart right until now. I know, I was infused with some kind of drug..somebody is lurking to hurt me. But I just do not know who..”

I place the book on the bed as I tried to grasp some courage back into my guts.

“Someone had call and give me a death treat. It was Orion. He demand for the formula. In a quick trance, I refused to give in for I knew, their dark family secret of wanting to used this formula for the benefits and greed to themselves. According to Aaron, they once had discretely reverse certain formula and concoction not to make the sick to be better but to get worst, therefore that could scam more money from those victims.”

“The worst straw that I can take in, when Orion has threatened to hurt my family. Therefore in such a quick decision, I proceeded with my engagement with Sumaiyah, despite her spiteful protest. And for Ezra, I’m left with no other choice but to send him far away from here just for a time being.”

“I knew my days are numbered now….Sumaiyah as I believe you will uphold our family integrity therefore here’s the secret potion which you truly deserve to uphold and used them in good will. Once you knew, go to Ezra and tell him..be the fragrance despite being crushed.”

As I flipped open the next page, true enough the concoction was neatly and carefully written by Habil. The simplest form of hibiscus was indeed to complete in harvesting the previous potion much to my amazement. In a quick notion, I quickly fixed and place back the tiny pocket book inside the photo frame. 

“Be the fragrance despite being crushed.” I said.

Ezra cautiously place the remaining stalks of roses upon his work table with his eyes gaze upon me.

He nodded earnestly with a blissful smile of grace and relief.

Canvas Thee Thoughts: Come Upon Me

You came into my dream again. Looking so beautiful but too much sadness pawn in your eyes. Not a word spoken and neither could I utter a script to convey my  thoughts and feelings. I usher myself to touch you, to feel you again..but you are not meant for me to hold any more. Just that ordain smile which you gifted me with…

Awaken in such a stunned notion, I sat on my bed, recalling your calmness and beauty, with tears welling in my eyes. Enclosing our wedding ring which I wore from the very first day of our wedding solemnisation, close to my heart. That significant evening which was set to be one of the most beautiful and memorable day for the rest of my life. After that unfortunate incident, you heal so well much to our joy and delight. We feel so thankful for the significant bliss and chances for us to amend what is wrong to do the right.

The love making  which we had was simply astoundingly beautiful and blissful. You had set your alluring icy blue eyes and charm, tingling me with the warmest yet gentle sweet kisses, undoing me in such the right  way and motions. Upon each touch which you gifted me, I became the submissive being of wanting more of your love.

However during that unforgettable evening when I overheard your conversation with Ezra, I knew something was beginning to amiss.

“Habil, why don’t you try that antidote? It probably  might help in your healing. I’ve taken them, and it has indeed proven its effectiveness, Even though it’s not 100% to be cured but at least it’s healing” state Ezra coaxing Habil.

I decided to just stand behind the wall so I could secretly listen to their conversation. “Is something happening to Habil which I was left unknown?” I thought with a tinge of disappointment.

Habil remain silent and his silence had actually stirred uneasiness deep inside my soul.

“I’m beyond cured. The poison had slowly engulf me internally. My wound had indeed completely heal but my internal organs is failing.” Noun Habil sorrowfully. “I’ve failed Ezra and I’ve failed Reem..”

“What nonsense are you talking about? Together we could come up with something.. a stronger antidote!” Exclaimed Ezra.

“My time is too limited now.. my chances of surviving is low.” Replied Habil solemnly “Ezra, you carry on with the findings..” noun Habil as he had his sight spun upon the view of the sea.

“I knew, sooner or later I will be loosing you..but why must it be too soon?” Rant my thoughts. The surgeon and doctors had already told me of your post conditions. Even though your stab wound has superficial and internally heal, but the poison which the dagger has been rubbed and thrust into you, had unfortunately corroded your vital organs. 

The night before you’re eternally taken.. we had lay side by side, arms interlocking one another, body and soul embracing each other. I knew I’m loosing you, for the warmest of your body slowly begins to fade. You had your eyes set upon me, unforgetting that splendour demure smile. I’m captured all those memories for my keepsakes. I place my fingers and gently caressing your face..and then you took your last breath. I couldn’t yelled, I wouldn’t screamed .. all I could do is sobbing tearfully in your arms.

Canvas Thee Thoughts: Embrace The Darkness

 

As gently as possibly I could, I place Habil on the cold marbled floor. I was about to let go of his hand, but I could feel a light tugged from him.

“Trust me..” I muttered as I let his hand slowly slipping off from me. He had his eyes looking anxiously towards me but upon that split moment a crude and lewd smile form on my face as I walk away from him.

The barbaric being laughed hysterically as though he had overcome a huge victory. He had his sight upon me but he seems to be in fixation as I amble nearer and nearer towards him while I began to unbuttoning my dress, letting him feast upon my ample body.

“Reem..” cried Habil as he struggled to crawl towards us.

In a swift notion, I caught hold of Orion face, the name that suddenly came back to my mind, Orion the son of Maxim. Maxim the being that had decided to astray Aaron with his greed and profitable scheme. However, Aaron was strong enough to pushed off that offer and in anger he cut Maxim off from all their shares and partnership. I could also recall Maxim had roared that he will never forget this and will set forth a vengeance to break Aaron’s family apart.

“Reem..” cried Orion.

I caught hold of his face and begins to rummage my lips upon his, causing him to moan and quiver. Bringing my body close to him had simply set him upon lustful desire of wanting me.

“Reem..” mark Habil sadly.

Orion begins to submit his corroded wants as he had roughly pushed me upon the counter top and begins tormenting me with his brutal kisses and caresses upon my shoulder and chest. Upon that gesture unknowingly he had slip the dagger off from his finger. Without wasting another second I quickly took it and thrust it deep in between his chest.

Orion had his shocking eyes locked upon me, before he fell dead upon my feet.

I pulled the dagger off from his chest and I flung it towards the far end of corner of our shop. My head hurts so badly now, that I held on to my temple with a grimaced. Two of his men had laid sprawling unmoved at the front entrance probably due to the massive blow which Habil had presented them with.

“Reem..” mutters my dad as he sat on the floor. It was a relieved knowing that my dad is alright.

“Habil..” I stutter as I rushed towards him and held him close in my arms. 

“Please forgive me..” whispered Habil.

“It’s okay, you will be okay..” I cried as I held on to him whimpering my soul out.

From the distance the siren of police vehicles and ambulance could be heard and I prayed all things will fall into places.

Habil look astonishing beautiful and bliss. I held out my hands in wanting to embrace him, but he’s too far a distance upon my reach. The amicable smile which he present himself towards me had simply ignite such a wondrous spirit of felicity and warm deep beneath my soul. 

“Habil..” I called out his name and suddenly I was awaken in such a startling notion. Upon that moment I realised I was in my room. Frantically, I pushed myself off from my bed and rushed out towards Habil’s room. The silence is mocking me, killing me..entwined me with sorrow. I sank on the front door of his room. It’s been a week now ever since his gone but yet I just couldn’t and wouldn’t want to accept it. 

“Reem..” cried a voice. It was Ezra.

“I believe him.. he didn’t mean to hurt me.. he..he was drugged..he need to come back. Habil needs to come back..” I cried tearfully.

“Reem please.. don’t do this to yourself..” pleads Ezra sternly as he held me up. “Do you think Habil need to be seeing you like this. Torturing and tormenting your soul with those riddling thoughts of yours.”

“My will of living has cut me and fragmented me to million tiny pieces. My soul was left with scars that bind me with more agony not healing. Acceptance of Habil’s passing was not for me to abide. To abide acceptance will conquer my courage. But what courage was I left with? Just nothingness and torments.” I state.

“You felt like all this happening, was left unanswered?” Asked Ezra.

I nodded my head.

“Then, we shall worked upon this. We will find the answer to all this.. I felt it too. I felt someone is wanting to break our family apart.” State Ezra. “I need you Reem.. together we can find the main delinquent.” 

Upon those words, I knew.. I had to instilled the noun of courage back into my soul.

Canvas Thee Thoughts : Recounting Baits

 

“Do you really need to leave?” I asked gloomily.

“It’s just a couple of days only..” replied Ezra with a smile. “And it’s a working trip mind you not a resort vacation.”

“Come on Ezra, please let me come with you?” I begged.

“Oh Reem. N.O .. no. The shop needs you..” state Ezra as he busily packing his clothing and other of his stuff into his bag. “I’ll be gone for just couple of days not years..if I can managed to pass the years though.” Exclaimed Ezra faintly.

“There.. that’s the reason.. so let me come with you..” I plead again coaxing him therefore he could change his mind.

“Reem.. you are already officially engaged to Habil..so it doesn’t look right for me to let you tagged along with me in this trip..” state Ezra firmly as he playfully tossed my hair.

“An engagement which I never agreed upon..” I mark solemnly. 

“Habil will protect you..and I believe he’s the best man to do it..furthermore he’s my brother..” pacify Ezra as he looked at me with a smile. With those words he slung his bag in his arm and left.

A week had passed by but still there’s no sign of Ezra coming back. The florist shop seems to kind of losing its glitter of joy and laughter ever since Ezra left. Or probably that was just my mind trying to set that scene to be.

“Reem, I noticed you’ve been too pre occupied yourself being here.” Remarks my dad in a worrisome tone.

“I need to keep tabs with the orders ..” I replied shortly as I continue diligently stacking and filing all the past and present orders invoices.

“Reem, don’t hide things from me. You seemed hurt and anguish..” state my dad as he came close to the counter and sat next to me.

“Habil touched me.” I mutters faintly as I had my sight upon my empty coffee mark. “Without my willingness..”

“Oh sweetheart.. I’m afraid that’s hard to believe..” he ponder.

I smile meekly and then I said. “Even I find it’s hard to believe that he’s capable of hurting me in such manner. He claimed he was drugged and he wasn’t himself when he had …”

My dad hold me close to him. It’s the very first time he had actually ever embrace me. “I’m hurt dad..it’s killing me.. please dad, don’t let Ezra know about this..and another thing, do call off my engagement with Habil..”

Upon that moment suddenly three being had stormed into our florist shop.

“We are closing now..” marks my dad as he moved forward towards one of the men. However without a warning he had strike my dad with a cricket bat much to my horror.

“Dad!!!” I cried as I quickly got to him and hold him my side.

“You must be Reem Sumaiyah..” he exclaimed with a wicked grin as he came forward and roughly pulled me up closer towards him.

“I don’t know if you could ever recall me..” he snarled.

“Remind me then.. who the hell you are and what do you want?!!” I yelled as I struggle beneath his arms.

“My dad and Aaron used to be partners in business. Pharmacology and Biochemical products.. all those drugs and medical stuff. They start small.. something like this pathetic florist shop of yours. My dad slotted himself day and night to bring PAB to be well known, globally known. Aaron promised he will make my dad the CEO of the second empire once it’s build, but what irks us Aaron decides to put you in charge instead..”

“I swear I didn’t know anything about this..” I rant as I winced in pain as he held on to my hair so tightly in his hands. 

“Bullshit!!!” He roared and in a split moment he slapped me hard across my face. The impact was so strong that I was flung few feet away from him.

Out of sudden I begins to recap at one point of time, when I was coming back from college, I notice Aaron and another gentleman was a deep discussion that turns out to be a heated argument. I recalled Aaron was against this man policy of selling high toxicity drugs that he claimed could cure cancer. 

“Your father is a greedy man. He wanted to sell toxic drugs to gain more profit..” I cried as I struggle to stand up.

“You know nothing about him..don’t you dare calling him names..” he bark as he strode towards me and forcefully held me up closer next to him. “Fuh.. just look at you.. I didn’t know Aaron has kept you pretty well..”

“Leave my daughter alone..” pleads my dad anxiously.

“Dad..” I cried in fear as the being drag me towards the corner of the shop. “Please don’t hurt me..” I plead. “You want the company, just let me sign any papers you need me to sign..”

“Oh you will definitely sign them alright, but let me taste you first..” he cried as he pin me with his body upon the floor. 

I cried in terror and fear. “Habil..!”

In that split moments there was a fight commotion had break up in the shop. Despite that frantic moment, the barbaric being continuously tormented me with his rough touches and kisses. I cried tearfully feeling so sick and disgusted. “No..” I cried in desperation.

Suddenly I felt relieved from the heaviness of his body..he had been roughly shove away from me.

“Reem..” mutters a gentle voice. It was Habil.

In another second, Habil had furiously threw few punches towards that being.

“Habil, the son of Aaron..” smirked that being. “Another form that will perished in my hand..” with those words without me realising it, he had held a long dagger. Within that mere moment, he had cruelly shove it towards Habil’s torso. Not once but twice..

“Habil!!!” I screamed tearfully as I struggle and quickly held on to Habil fallen form. “No..no..no this can’t be happening..” Habil quiver in pain and sorrow in my arms. “No..” upon that notion, suddenly my mind and turns bleak. The fear doesn’t resounds me but another soul has gain me..the soul of darkness.

Canvas Thee Thoughts : The Awaken Beam

 

The noon sun has almost sets in but my guts and my form just not wanting to leave the room. Tears of heartbreak and betrayal just wouldn’t want to leave the spiral sadness of my heart. I clenched my knees close to my body, gently rocking myself trying to claim some comfort. 

Upon that notion, suddenly there’s was a light knocking on my door. Fears sets in as I tremble and shiver.

“Reem..”It was Ezra. “It’s almost noon, and your breakfast turning cold soon. Not forgetting your medication.”

I remained stupor for the noun name courage had indeed left my spirit.

“Reem. May I come in?” Requested Ezra sounding as calm as he possibly could.

“I’m alright. I’m just having slight temperature..I’ll be down in a while.. just let me rest first..” I replied trying to make a notable tone.

“Okay.. anyway our florist shop will be close from today till weekend, so we could all rest and spend some ample time together as a family.” Marks Ezra.

I remained silence with a worrisome charts stamped in my head.

The cold shower had indeed somehow or rather begins to fragment the benign fear and sadness in my heart. However the darkening traits of anger had begins to engulf. “No, I can’t appear to be weak. I’m Reem.. I’m stronger .. I can overcome this. You’ve trampled my soul, I swear I will cut yours even more.”

I sat coldly by the table as I slowly sipped my coffee. Habil came by but he just stood a few feet away from me looking distraught with torrential guilt. I had my sight straight looking in his eyes. Beside my coffee cup, as usual there lay my medication which Habil had never failed to prepare everyday. I stood up and with a smirk look rate on my face, I took all those medication and flung them straight to his face. “I’m disgusted with you..” I snarled and then I walks away.

But my arm was caught as he gently held on to it. “Don’t do this..” pleads Habil.

I roared with laughter. “Did you stopped when I plead to you like a sickening slave begging for mercy..?”

“What’s going on here both of you?” Cried Ezra with my father walking behind him.

“I.. I..” stammered Habil with wreaking tears marks in his eyes.

“Just a minor misunderstanding..we are good. Aren’t we Habil?” I rant and with those words I walked away.

Evening just about to sets in. I looked upon the sky, it seems rain bound to fall soon. From afar, I saw both Ezra and Habil sitting together by the coffee table talking and giggling between themselves. I was thinking of placing few of our flower pots further inside our garden porch hoping both of them won’t be noticing me. However, as I walked just few feet away from them, I overhead Habil wanting to make his creed confession of staining me.

“Habil!!!” I called out which sounded like almost a shout which definitely shocking both of them. “Can you give me a hand here for a minute?”

Ezra nodded his head acknowledging Habil’s wanting to assist me.

In a brisk, I took hold of his hand and roughly shove him against the wall, making sure Ezra and my dad were out from our sight.

“You listen here, and be wise. Don’t you dare open up your stupid mouth, telling them of what sick deeds you have done.” I warned him.

“This guilt..” mutters Habil.

“Live with it!!! Don’t end Ezra life too soon with the damage which you’ve caused me..” I warned him again. 

Days passing too slowly to my perspective. Each time nights transcend, it becomes such a traumatic maze cursed upon my skin. Sleep refused to come and it’s already coming to the forth day, I barely could close my eyes. For each time doses of slumber decides to reside my eyes, the wreaking terror script carousel my thoughts to haunt me. It’s killing me inside out. No matter what Habil do or say to mark his guilt..to crave the redemption, I just couldn’t look at him or just be near him.

Tonight is yet another night of insomnia for me to be bound. I tossed my blanket off from my body as I walk towards the door. My hands shiver as I turned the door knob and slowly opened it. I sighed with relief as I tiptoed out from my room. “I need to take something.. I need to get myself some sleep.” I thought to myself as I came towards the kitchen cabinet. In a swift, I begin ransacking each and every cupboard searching for some pain killers to doze me off. “Where is it?” I hissed furiously.

“Looking for this?” 

I froze, it was Habil.

“Give them to me..!”

“You refused the other medication but yet here you are solely needing and depending on this drugs..?” He exclaimed sternly.

“I said just give them to me..” I snapped in rage as I clawed my means and ways to get that bottle of potion off from his hands.

Habil wouldn’t want to give in as he hold the bottle firmly in his palm and with his other arm, he had managed to entwine me closer to him. 

“You sickening beast..!” I cried.

“Why does it makes it so hard for you to believe me.. I swear I didn’t mean to hurt you. I’m willing to take full responsibility for all the damages that I’ve caused you..” 

“Just stop your prophetic talks with me..” I cried as I struggle in between his grasp.

However in a midst of that, he had managed to pin me against the wall. No matter how hard I tried to get myself off him, he just wouldn’t barge as he had his icy blue eyes staring intensely into mine. It feels intoxicating however, pleasurable much to my disgust.

“Habil!!! What’s this?” Exclaimed a voice. It was Ezra.

Upon that moment, Habil slowly released his arms from me with guilt stricken mark on his face.

“I’m.. I’m into this stuff now.. Habil is here trying to stop me from taking any more of it…” I said grimly.

Ezra took the drug from Habil’s hand and shake his head.

“What’s happening to both of you?” He asked. “Reem, you should be better than this…? If you can ever recall what this shit had actually done to your mum..??”

“She’s becoming insane thanks to both of your dad???” I roared in anger and left.

I flung myself on the bed with sobbing storm embarking me.

“Reem..” marked Ezra sadly as he stood few feet away from my bed. “Please forgive my words. I’m just worried seeing you like this. You’ve seems to change and so is Habil. Each time when I asked, both of you just keeps mum. Look, it’s okay to have some misunderstandings but to drag it till like this. And now you taking those harmful stuff..” heaved Ezra sorrowfully. “Another thing, Habil told me, you refused to take any medications which was prescribed by him. You know, he’s your doctor now, so it’s his obligation to look strictly upon this matter.”

“Alright, I will take those medications but under one condition. Either he’s got to go or I will leave.” I cried.

Ezra sat on my bed with shocking note marks on his face. “Reem, tell me what’s going on between the both of you?”

I remained silence as I had my sight fixed upon the laminate floor.

“Certain things are better to be left unknown and forsake. The fault lies in me. I’ve been selfish…too self centred.” 

“But if it’s breaking you too much.. you can always share and talked to me.. remember like how we used to be?”

“No matter how much I’ve always wanted and dream of us being like how we used to be? But I guess.. all those were just casual talks in my head, trying to pacify my heart.” I marked sadly. “I’m tired now.. I need my rest..”

I lay on my bed, as Ezra pulled the blanket and gently covers me. In a brief he had his sight on me before he closed the door and left.

Canvas Thee Thoughts : Apocalyptic Hearts

From my room, as I sat on my bed with my knees close upon my chest, I could vividly see Ezra sitting alone on the bench of our garden. He seems to have his thoughts and sight purging upon the view of the sea. However right after dusk sets in, I just couldn’t forsake these listless feelings lingering my soul.

After Habil saw my acquaintance with Ezra, Habil just turned and walked away without saying a word. I became uneasy seeing this side Habil.

During dinner, he hardly touches his food. My dad was the non oblivion one as he tries to strike a conversation for he could sense tension enclosing among us. As I begin to cleft the ice by joining in with my dad’s subject.

“I’m done..” state Habil coldly as he stood up from the dining area and left without looking back.

“Have I angered him too much?” Rant my thoughts.

With that dampening maze ransacking my head, I lay upon my bed, hoping sleep will just touches and soothe me. When suddenly there was a light tapping on my door. 

“Who is it?”

Silence is all there to be noun but the tapping of the door continues. I pushed my blanket away and usher myself towards the door and open it.

“Habil..” I mutters.

There were rancid darkening scripts mark in his eyes  as he forcefully came into my room and in a flash he locked it from inside. Soon I realised his grave intention as I tried to walked pass him so I could unlocked the door and ran. But he had his arms enclosing my waist. Before I could scream, he had cupped my mouth with his hands and all my screams and rants just transcend to high muffles.

I struggle with all my might beneath his arms, pleading and begging him to let go. But it all turns to nothing, as he roughly shoved me on my bed with him on top of me. 

“Habil please don’t do this… you are hurting me..”

Those pleads just fall like the petals of flowers been cruelly blown and crushed by a blizzard storm. Habil ferociously had his lips terrorising over mine, I struggle beneath him, but to no avail as he tore part of my clothes leaving me feel so vulnerable. He smiled in such a crude manner much to my fear as he had his lips ransacking all over my shoulder and my body in such brutal manner. With both my hands I tried to fight him off but he had his hands empowering my wrist by the side of my bed.

“Habil.. don’t do this.. I’m begging you..” I cried tearfully.

Without mercy, he had cruelly taken me in such merciless manner. The agonising pain was unspeakable. I tried to scream but he has cunningly locked his lips in between mine, with his fingers roughly kneading my body. I tremble in between sob and tears but he doesn’t seems to see all that, he doesn’t even care. After he had fulfilled his horrific lustful task. He had his darkening eyes looked upon mine. In a brief, he held his temple with a grimace look of fear on his face. I just couldn’t look in his eyes any more. I looked away with silent tears woven in my eyes. I knew he had robbed my dignity yet again and for this time, I just couldn’t win stand the torturous pain as I slipped into that sub consciousness state.

I arouse back to reality as I felt such an agonising pain and bruise pounding my head and my body. I could hardly move my legs as they felt kind of heavy and limp. My below beacon such a tormenting sore. Suddenly I remember, Habil.

I turned to my side and there he lays station in his slumberland. In my heart ran those scripts of daunting questions. “Why? How could you ?”

Upon that wheeling moment suddenly Habil has awaken, but in such a startling manner. “Reem!!!” He whispered.

His eyes caught my frantic shivering sight. “What have I done?” Cried Habil as he came closer towards me.

“Stay away from me..” I screamed.

“Reem..I swear I don’t remember anything. I wasn’t aware of what I was doing or thinking..” explained Habil tearfully as he enclose his arms around me.

I struggle in between his embrace and pushed him away from me.

“I will bear this responsibility.. I swear I will..”

“Over my dead body.. I swear you will never touched me again..” with those words I took few of my show cases items and threw at him.

Habil used his hands to shield himself from those metal plates however, one had eventually hit the side of his lips and slightly cut it.

I felt taken aback. “Go.. and don’t ever come near me again.”

“You’ve got to believe me.. I was set up.. I was drugged..” state Habil tearfully as he puts on his clothes. “You know me, what kind of person I am.. you know how much I’ve felt for you.. I wouldn’t want to hurt you.. I love you Reem.”

“I believe now.. I believe it alright.. you’ve actually projected what kind of liar and barbaric person you are. I hate you Habil. You are a pretentious being, unveiled yourself and just show what kind of devilish form you are.”

Habil looked sadly towards me, and with no words spoken, he left.