Adam's Eye : Chapter Twenty- One

"The nurses had told me you will always be here to take your rest." said Izaldeen as he sat beside his sister. Zaharah remains silence. From the hospital roof top the view was magnificent. Tall buldings lights and the street lights beginning to lights up as the night begins to sets in. Zaharah shut her eyes when suddenly she remembers the last time she and Adam had sat by the verandah at their home and the words which Adam had spoken to her...it seems Adam had anticipate something will befall him. Zaharah begins to cry in silent. Izaldeen cannot bear seeing Zaharah had suffer so much due to his grievious mistake.
"I'm so sorry Zaharah...I will never blame you for hating me." utter Izaldeen.
"Why do you have to choose your life to live like this? Does killing and hurting innocent lifes makes you stronger?" asked Zaharah with full of sacarsm in her voice. Izaldeen turn to look at her.
"I have no other choice...!" replied Izaldeen.
"No it's not that you don't have the choice but you choose to live that way. How could you?" cried Zaharah as she tries to remain calm.
"To protect you." said Izaldeen as he took his sharp dagger out from his jacket and place it beside him.
"I don't understand." cried Zaharah as she waited futher for her brother's next words.
"After they felt satisfied with their beating and stabbing...they had told me that they will come for you....they wanted to hurt you. I know from that day onwards I had to fight to live. They threw me out from their car. I felt pain almost every part of me...I received countless stab wounds but I'm not giving up...cause I want to live for you...to protect you. As I was stragerring on the road, a van stop by and they took me inside their van. However along the way I pass out. I did not reliased that those people...they were belongs to some kind of underground assasins." Izaldeen stop as he took out his cigarrate and his lighter. "They took care of my wounds until they heals...and then I begin to learn their trade....to fulfil my revenge on those thugs who had almost kill me and also to prevent them coming for you...! I can never let that happen." cried Izaldeen looking intensely at his silver lighter. Zaharah saw so many pains and torment written all over his face and she feel a tinge of sadness. She realised..he became like what he is right now was not his choice afterall...but due to circumstances.
"We managed to find those thugs and we slained them without mercy....I become rentless and I felt satisfied after seeing all their dead faces cause I knew you will be safe...but on the other part of me....I feel dead..numb. I have no sense of feelings anymore...it seems that my spirit is dead and my soul has left me far far away from body. I continue to be involved with more assasination. I was declare as their leader due to my ruthlessness....with a price...my soul." Izaldeen held his hands and cover his face. And then he begins to wept sorrowfully. "God had punish me. I've found you......but twisted in this situation...I won't blame God..cause I fall due to my own hatred and selfishness."
Zaharah could not contain her sadness any longer and she hold him in her arms.
"You will always be my hero...you're my only elder brother I had...my only blood brother." whispered Zaharah.
"Zaharah this is going to be our last meeting. I've decided to turn myself in for all the terrible crimes which I've committed. I guess this is the only way where I could atone myself." continue Izaldeen and he was determined to set his goal straight and face up to his misdeeds. Zaharah looks at Izaldeen and she becomes speechless. "No..I can't lose you again. I shall get the best lawyer to help you with this." cried Zaharah holding on to her brother's arm. Izaldeen shakes his head. "No Zaharah...please don't...I'm ready to face the justice. Just don't fall and be like me....promised me Zaharah...you won't act irrationally." cried Izaldeen as he touches her hair...and then he kisses her forehead. After he look at her for a few moment and then he stood up and walk away. Zaharah let her brother go with a heavy heart. Before she left she saw the dagger which Izaldeen had left on his seat. She reaches out her hand and hold it and then she keeps it carefully in her bag...and take it as a reminder. "Your weapon however can become your worst threat...."



"Adam,I can't go through these on my own. I'm not strong enough to face all this on my own.. I've lose everything .And now I'm afraid I'm losing myself." whispered Zaharah tearfully as she lay her head on his chest and listening to his heartbeat is like a cure that can heal her wounded soul. Suddenly she felt a touch on her hair.
"Zaharah..!" cried that small voice...the voice which she has been praying so hard day and night to hear again. Zaharah look up and it was Adam's soft touch. Zaharah could not contain her emotion any longer and let her tears fell softly on her cheeks.
"That can never happen...I promise you that..!" said Adam weakly however he gave her a smile...a smile that had miracalously taken away her sorrow but was replace with courage and hope. Zaharah held on to his hand and bring it closer to her cheeks. Adam caress her soft cheeks, wiping the tears of her face. As his eyes were still in bandange therefore all he could sense is her voice and her touch.
"Adam...don't leave me like this again." cried Zaharah as she come closer to his face and kisses his lips. "I shall call for the doctor to check on you further." continue Zaharah as she left the room to meet the nurses.
Soon the nurses came in with a doctor and carry out their examination. The doctor was extremely please with Adam's progress. "He had such a strong determination to live." exclaimed the doctor as he check on his heartbeat and lungs.Most of his cut wounds due to the shaterred glass were almost heal. Some fine line scars however still can been seen but the doctor had re ensure Zaharah that those scars will definately fade in few months time. And the doctor had told Zaharah that Adam need active rehabilation activities to make sure he can use his muscle and limbs again as he had suffered mutiple fracture on his right arms and both of his legs. Thankfully he spinal nerve were intact or else he might not be able to walk again. When the doctor was about to mention about his eyes condition, Zaharah put a finger on her lips and shakes her head. She does not want Adam to know about his eye condition...not at this moment as she knew he needs those eyes to carry on with his passion...his painting. Adam had just regain back his spirit and if he were to know about his damaged eyes, Zaharah knew his spirit will be shattered. Zaharah felt that Adam need sometime to heal his physical and emotional wound first and she's determined to stand by his side no matter what happens. Just then Ana came soon after she had received this bless news from Zaharah. Ana walks towards Adam and clasp her hand on to her lips as she felt thankful to God for Adam remarkable recovery.
"Adam." utter Ana as she stood by his side and caress his hair. "You have fight well....!" exclaimed Ana. Adam smile faintly upon his mother's remarks. Zaharah was about to leave the room to get themselves some drinks when suddenly she saw Zaki was standing at the doorway.
"Get out of my sight" snapped Zaharah not wanting Zaki to be near Adam not even an inch as the trust which she apparently used to had on him were vanished.
"Zaharah...please don't do this....he's my brother." said Zaki in between tears. Upon hearing those words without thinking twice Zaharah slapped him hard across his face.
"Why now Zaki? Why only now you had decides to anknowledge him as your brother." cried Zaharah keeping her voice down as low as she could. Zaki could see so much anger and hatred written all over her face. Her eyes were so intense as tears of dissapointment begins to fall on her cheeks. Ana notice the commotion outside the corridor. She leave Adam for a while and head out towards them.
"Zaharah, Zaki what's going on here?' asked Ana anxiously as she saw Zaharah was clenching her fist by her side and at any point of time from the look of it, she bound to throw more punches towards Zaki who was holding on his tears that will just fall at any moment.
"Ma, please tell this son of yours never step any inch closer near Adam. I forbided him." cried Zaharah as she point her finger towards Zaki's face. Ana look at Zaki tearfully however she makes a sign telling him to leave as not to aggravate the matter futher. Zaki walks out towards the elevator with a heavy heart. He felt hurt by Zaharah's reaction but he can never blame her cause he knew all the terrible things which he did to them. Zaki decides to sit in his car while waiting for his mother. He closed his eyes as he felt tears begins welling in his eyes. His emotion was screaming and burning his chest. "No! I can't just sit around and do nothing. Oh! God please show me your guidience...don't leave me hollow." cried Zaki as he cried silently. He soon reliased that it was not easy to be accepted again.
Ana went inside Adam's room and sat beside his bed side. Zaharah was still holding on to Adam's hand. Ana realised that Zaharah was over-protective over Adam and she knew Zaharah fear of seeing Adam been hurt again.
"Zaharah." called Ana as she look at her with concern.
"Yes ma." she replied but still had her eyes fix on Adam. Adam felt abit restless as he has been lying down for too long and begins to stir his back left and then slowly to the right again. Zaharah stood up and help prop up the bed and push in some pillow by his side to make him more comfortable. Adam smile as he sat up on his bed.
"Zaharah I'm going home now. Zaki might be waiting for me in his car. Why don't you come with us and maybe tomorrow we can visit Adam again." said Ana hoping that Zaharah will accept her offer and not only because of that, Ana was worried about Zaharah's health too as she just gone through an abotion procedure just few days ago.
"Ma is right. You should go back home." said Adam.
"It's okay. Ma you go ahead. I'm staying with Adam just for a while. Anyway I've already book a cab." replied Zaharah as she could not imagined herself in the same car with Zaki.
"Alright then. Adam I shall make a move first. Zaharah please don't stay out too late alright." cried Ana as she stood up and kisses both of them. Zaharah walks her out until the elevator. Ana touches Zaharah's cheeks and then she left. Zaharah could tell the love Ana had for all of her children and she knew Ana might feel hurt due to Zaharah's hatred towards Zaki. Zaharah walks back towards Adam's room and make some space to sit by his side. Adam turn towards her and touches her face, her eyes nose and lips. And then he caress her hair and bring it closer to his nose and smelt the sweet frangrance of her soft wavy hair.
"Zaharah, you seems upset about something." cried Adam and Zaharah was surprised as Adam could sense her feelings.
"Zaharah, did he try to hurt you again?" asked Adam as he look worried.
"Not a chance!" replied Zaharah with a cold tone.
"Okay...new confidence..I like that." said Adam nodded his head. He realised Zaharah seems to be so different now. She appears to be stronger and determined not to let anybody stand in their way again.
"You taught me well Adam..spiritually." replied Zaharah. Adam was amuse by her remarks and he smile.
"Zaharah, I knew about our baby. Ma had told me just now when you were outside. It's okay...I still love you." said Adam as he took her hand and bring it to his lips.
"Thanks Adam for your understanding...cause I was trying hard on how to bring this matter out to you." replied Zaharah solemnly.
"Well, we can always make some more babies.." grin Adam showing his 'darlie' smile as he tries to cheer Zaharah up. Zaharah laugh upon hearing those words from Adam and she pinch his arm.
"Ouch.....mind you...my bones kind of brittle." cried Adam giggling away. Zaharah felt so glad upon hearing his cheerful self again. It seems his laughter is infectious....broken heart can be heal just upon hearing it.
"The doctor had told me just now that they will remove this stupid bandange off my eyes in one week time." cried Adam with full of hope and determination much to Zaharah's dismay. She knew he bounds to break down if he knew about his damaged eye. Zaharah remains silent. She tried to control her emotion. No she must not cry in front of him. Zaharah knew why the doctor needs to take a week to remove the bandange cause usually it can be remove once Adam had regains concious again. It was because, they wanted Adam to heal physically...his movement. If he were to know that he's going to be blind for the rest of his life, he will become depress and might not even want to try to stand again.
"I miss seeing your sweet smile and your beautiful eyes." continued Adam as he smile lovingly towards Zaharah.
"Take your time alright." replied Zaharah as she caress his hair which had start to grow longer now. Just then the nurse came in with Adam's medication. After taking the medication, Adam felt drowsy and fell asleep soon after. Zaharah kisses his lips and then she decides to go back home for a while. The cab which she had book earlier was already at the waiting area.
It was almost half past midnight. She searched for the house keys and thankfully it was in her bag as she does not want to wake anybody up. Then she went straight to her room. She walks towards her bed and then a sense of loneliness crept in. How much she misses Adam being by herside. As she was about to had her shower, suddenly she saw a letter on her table. She took it in her hand and she was surprised cause it was from Ameena. She unseal it and then there was another seal letter. Then she realised it was from the clinical lab. She tore the envelope to read the content....the result of the DNA test. After reading it, she fold back the letter and place it back into the envelope. She shut her eyes ....bringing her hands towards her face. Then she stood up and she decides to check on Aden first before having her shower. As she enters Aden's nursery, she saw Zaki was carrying him.
"How dare you touching my son?" yelled Zaharah.
"He was calling for his daddy. I was just trying to calm him down." replied Zaki.
Zaharah pulls Aden from his arm and carry him. "Don't you ever think of replacing Adam to be this child's father. You are not fit to be his father....and also a father for any other children." cried Zaharah. Aden begins to whimper and Zaharah begins rocking him side to side to calm him down. "Now just leave us." cried Zaharah and she don't care how he felt but she knew those harsh words has definately hit him directly into his soul.