Silence seems to be killing the emotions, fear sets to anger..love might transit to hate. Ezra remains quiet throughout our journey back home. The drizzling evening rains seems to clarify my thoughts of cloudy mood. I know Ezra is ultimately upset and disappointed because I lied to him.
“I need to know the truth, that’s why I went back there looking for him..” I snapped as I stop midway.
“I’m worried sick do you know that!!!’ He cried. “Your dad his emotions and mental is unstable.. things could happen..”
“He was okay, not until you came around..” I heaved.
“Oh!! Really?? How about yesterday? He thinks you’re his dead wife and decides to strangle you!” Reminded Ezra.
Okay on this he certainly got the point.
“I’m sorry okay..” I said grimly.
“And Reem for once please stop being so apologetic..” state Ezra as he had his sight towards me. “Looked.. I just do not know where to start.. now you already knew Aaron is my dad and Habil is my elder brother. And with that new episode of truth makes me hated Aaron even more…”
I walk closer towards Ezra and asked, “How long ago have you knew about this?”
Ezra remain clambered.
“Ezra you can share with me?” I said.
“After his death.. I received a call from him.. Habil..” he replied solemnly.
With this, it makes me wonder does Habil knew the truth after Aaron’a death too? “How about Habil?” I asked as I can’t contain my curiosity anymore.
Ezra chuckles lightly but I could sense deep sorrow from the tone of it. “He’s the golden boy..Aaron manage to locate his lost son, way back and decides to groom him into someone outstanding. Unlike me.. he treats me like an outcast!!”
“No Ezra, Aaron thinks highly of you.. you knew that, it’s just you never notice it..” I said then I paused. “Probably I’ve been think shitty things about Aaron too but from what I know from Ariel.. Aaron is indeed a saviour. He sacrificed his love for my mum and gave her heart to Ariel instead. Which unfortunately, Ariel my dad has forsaken..” I muttered. “My fate dreadfully could turns out to be like him..?I’m afraid I might be a curse to you Ezra. I can’t promise you the happiness which we’ve dreamt about..”
“Reem…” state Ezra as he stands next right close to me. He had his arms around my hips as he brings me closer upon his chest. “Reem, there’s something which you need to know.. something about me..”
“I’m here ..” I muttered.
There were sadness written in his eyes and this makes me more anxious then ever. “What is it Ezra?”
“Reem, what do you dream about us? Our future?” He asked.
“I never really thought about it.. I just take things like how it is.. as long as we are sincere and honest with one another, I’m sure our foundation of love would be strong as ever..” I said.
Ezra smile but tears begins to well in his eyes.
“What’s wrong Ezra?” I asked as I held my palms gently upon his face.
“I dream of living in our current home with our beautiful children colouring our hopes and dreams. I dream my flora business will flourish globally as I will work as hard as I could to bring and provide good life for all of us.. I will bring you to the best psychiatrist to heal you and your dad..the list is too long for me to mention it all..” marks Ezra
“Oh Ezra..”
“But..” paused Ezra. “I’m afraid those dreams could never happen ..” state Ezra as he held my fingers and bring them to his lips. Suddenly he begins to sob.
“Ezra please tell me what’s wrong?” I asked as anguish notion begins to ransacks my heart.
“I’m dying..” state Ezra sorrowfully.
“What?” I muttered as I held on to Ezra as he begins to tremble faintly.
“I’ve cancer. They found some rare but ferocious cancer cell in my blood stream.”
I shake my head in disbelief. “No..no.. you are not dying.. I’m sure something can be done to cure you..”
“I’ve got less than a month..” said Ezra dejectedly. “Please forgive me Reem..I guess letting you go is the best choice which I need to do.”
“No.. don’t. Let me be there for you, let me take care of you ..”
“I do not want to be a burden to you Reem..”
“I don’t care what you want to think or say.. we should solemnities our marriage.. we could do it today, this evening..”
“Wait till tomorrow..alright.” State Ezra as he lightly kisses my lips and embrace me as close as possibly he could.
The wondrous cold clammy weather had indeed turns beautifully cosy and warm.. just been in his arms makes me feel whole again.
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