Upon that notion, suddenly there’s was a light knocking on my door. Fears sets in as I tremble and shiver.
“Reem..”It was Ezra. “It’s almost noon, and your breakfast turning cold soon. Not forgetting your medication.”
I remained stupor for the noun name courage had indeed left my spirit.
“Reem. May I come in?” Requested Ezra sounding as calm as he possibly could.
“I’m alright. I’m just having slight temperature..I’ll be down in a while.. just let me rest first..” I replied trying to make a notable tone.
“Okay.. anyway our florist shop will be close from today till weekend, so we could all rest and spend some ample time together as a family.” Marks Ezra.
I remained silence with a worrisome charts stamped in my head.
The cold shower had indeed somehow or rather begins to fragment the benign fear and sadness in my heart. However the darkening traits of anger had begins to engulf. “No, I can’t appear to be weak. I’m Reem.. I’m stronger .. I can overcome this. You’ve trampled my soul, I swear I will cut yours even more.”
I sat coldly by the table as I slowly sipped my coffee. Habil came by but he just stood a few feet away from me looking distraught with torrential guilt. I had my sight straight looking in his eyes. Beside my coffee cup, as usual there lay my medication which Habil had never failed to prepare everyday. I stood up and with a smirk look rate on my face, I took all those medication and flung them straight to his face. “I’m disgusted with you..” I snarled and then I walks away.
But my arm was caught as he gently held on to it. “Don’t do this..” pleads Habil.
I roared with laughter. “Did you stopped when I plead to you like a sickening slave begging for mercy..?”
“What’s going on here both of you?” Cried Ezra with my father walking behind him.
“I.. I..” stammered Habil with wreaking tears marks in his eyes.
“Just a minor misunderstanding..we are good. Aren’t we Habil?” I rant and with those words I walked away.
Evening just about to sets in. I looked upon the sky, it seems rain bound to fall soon. From afar, I saw both Ezra and Habil sitting together by the coffee table talking and giggling between themselves. I was thinking of placing few of our flower pots further inside our garden porch hoping both of them won’t be noticing me. However, as I walked just few feet away from them, I overhead Habil wanting to make his creed confession of staining me.
“Habil!!!” I called out which sounded like almost a shout which definitely shocking both of them. “Can you give me a hand here for a minute?”
Ezra nodded his head acknowledging Habil’s wanting to assist me.
In a brisk, I took hold of his hand and roughly shove him against the wall, making sure Ezra and my dad were out from our sight.
“You listen here, and be wise. Don’t you dare open up your stupid mouth, telling them of what sick deeds you have done.” I warned him.
“This guilt..” mutters Habil.
“Live with it!!! Don’t end Ezra life too soon with the damage which you’ve caused me..” I warned him again.
Days passing too slowly to my perspective. Each time nights transcend, it becomes such a traumatic maze cursed upon my skin. Sleep refused to come and it’s already coming to the forth day, I barely could close my eyes. For each time doses of slumber decides to reside my eyes, the wreaking terror script carousel my thoughts to haunt me. It’s killing me inside out. No matter what Habil do or say to mark his guilt..to crave the redemption, I just couldn’t look at him or just be near him.
Tonight is yet another night of insomnia for me to be bound. I tossed my blanket off from my body as I walk towards the door. My hands shiver as I turned the door knob and slowly opened it. I sighed with relief as I tiptoed out from my room. “I need to take something.. I need to get myself some sleep.” I thought to myself as I came towards the kitchen cabinet. In a swift, I begin ransacking each and every cupboard searching for some pain killers to doze me off. “Where is it?” I hissed furiously.
“Looking for this?”
I froze, it was Habil.
“Give them to me..!”
“You refused the other medication but yet here you are solely needing and depending on this drugs..?” He exclaimed sternly.
“I said just give them to me..” I snapped in rage as I clawed my means and ways to get that bottle of potion off from his hands.
Habil wouldn’t want to give in as he hold the bottle firmly in his palm and with his other arm, he had managed to entwine me closer to him.
“You sickening beast..!” I cried.
“Why does it makes it so hard for you to believe me.. I swear I didn’t mean to hurt you. I’m willing to take full responsibility for all the damages that I’ve caused you..”
“Just stop your prophetic talks with me..” I cried as I struggle in between his grasp.
However in a midst of that, he had managed to pin me against the wall. No matter how hard I tried to get myself off him, he just wouldn’t barge as he had his icy blue eyes staring intensely into mine. It feels intoxicating however, pleasurable much to my disgust.
“Habil!!! What’s this?” Exclaimed a voice. It was Ezra.
Upon that moment, Habil slowly released his arms from me with guilt stricken mark on his face.
“I’m.. I’m into this stuff now.. Habil is here trying to stop me from taking any more of it…” I said grimly.
Ezra took the drug from Habil’s hand and shake his head.
“What’s happening to both of you?” He asked. “Reem, you should be better than this…? If you can ever recall what this shit had actually done to your mum..??”
“She’s becoming insane thanks to both of your dad???” I roared in anger and left.
I flung myself on the bed with sobbing storm embarking me.
“Reem..” marked Ezra sadly as he stood few feet away from my bed. “Please forgive my words. I’m just worried seeing you like this. You’ve seems to change and so is Habil. Each time when I asked, both of you just keeps mum. Look, it’s okay to have some misunderstandings but to drag it till like this. And now you taking those harmful stuff..” heaved Ezra sorrowfully. “Another thing, Habil told me, you refused to take any medications which was prescribed by him. You know, he’s your doctor now, so it’s his obligation to look strictly upon this matter.”
“Alright, I will take those medications but under one condition. Either he’s got to go or I will leave.” I cried.
Ezra sat on my bed with shocking note marks on his face. “Reem, tell me what’s going on between the both of you?”
I remained silence as I had my sight fixed upon the laminate floor.
“Certain things are better to be left unknown and forsake. The fault lies in me. I’ve been selfish…too self centred.”
“But if it’s breaking you too much.. you can always share and talked to me.. remember like how we used to be?”
“No matter how much I’ve always wanted and dream of us being like how we used to be? But I guess.. all those were just casual talks in my head, trying to pacify my heart.” I marked sadly. “I’m tired now.. I need my rest..”
I lay on my bed, as Ezra pulled the blanket and gently covers me. In a brief he had his sight on me before he closed the door and left.
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