Adam's Eye : Chapter Twenty-Eight

It has been six months however there were still no news about Adam's missing body. Zaki do all the best that he could in order to locate his brother...just seeing his body eventhough it will be tough for him to accept..but it's better than nothing at all. He decides to leave early from his office and headed back home.

Ana was playing with Aden in the nursery when Zaki came home. "How is she?" ask Zaki looking concern towards Ana. Ana shakes her head sadly. Zaki walks out from the nursery and headed towards's Zaharah's room. As he enters, he saw lots of Adam's T-shirt lay around her bed as she lies motionless. Zaki walks in slowly and sat beside her.

"Adam." cried Zaharah in her daze. When she realised it was Zaki she look away and face the window instead. She feel dead. After Adam has gone...she had become lifeless. All her spirit were drain out from her....what was left is just her physical body..just like a living dead. It breaks Zaki's heart seeing her like this and futhermore she's having a baby and in another three months the baby will be born. Zaki saw the untouch food on the table. He take the food and coax Zaharah to have few spoonful of porridge. Zaharah pushes Zaki's hand away and refused to open her mouth. "Leave me alone...! Please go away." cried Zaharah as she hold on to her tummy.

Zaki place the food back on the table and he stood up. No..he can't just leave her like this.

"Zaharah...look at me!" shouted Zaki but he knew he don't have any other choice to get her attention. "You have been selfish..do you know that. So you think it was only you...feeling the lost...missing him. So am I and so is my mother. Have you ever thought about other people's feeling around you..but yourself? You know how worried sick we are about you...we have lost Adam and losing you will be another tragic hapening in this family. How about your baby..Adam's unborn child have you thought about it's wellbeing. No all you care is about yourself...yourself! Adam will be terribly dissapointed by your attitude if you carry on like this." yelled Zaki again. He felt bad shouting at her due to her vunerable state but he has no other choice but to make her realised that this is not the end of everything. "Where is that strong-willed, high-spirited Zaharah that we have always known. Answer me Zaharah." shouted Zaki again.

Zaharah looks at Zaki intensely. "You don't know anything about me..my lost. He supposed to come back to me..but he's gone just like that."

"No he maybe gone..but look at this Zaharah...his spirit is growing inside you..Please live for this baby sake...your child sake." said Zaki as he sat by Zaharah's side. "We are all with you...I'm with you." continue Zaki with tears in his eyes. Zaharah close her face with her palms and cry tearfully. Zaki caress her hair as he tries to comfort her.

"You are right Zaki. I should live on for this child." utter Zaharah as she wipes the tears of her face. And then she took the plate of food and begins feeding herself. Zaki keeps her company until she fell fast asleep. Zaki touch her cheeks and carress her hair. However he did not realised Ana was standing at the door looking at him.

Picking up the lost pieces in her life won’t be that simple, but Zaharah knew she had to find that missing pieces of puzzle to fill up the hollow gap for the sake of her own future and Adam’s…their precious child. Zaharah begins to take her meals regularly and together with all her supplements. And soon enough she managed to gain back her strength much to Ana’s and Zaki’s relief. Zaharah begins to bloom beautifully throughout her third semester pregnancy.. It seems a new breath of soul has been blown to her, uplifting her spirit making her feel a life again. Slowly she begins to join in with Ana and Zaki for tea-time and at times she spend her days with Ana attending to the garden or some window shopping which Zaki at times drag himself to come along. Ana offers to buy some of the babies clothing and other needs but Zaharah decides not to rush through that first cause she needs to know if the baby is going to be a boy or a girl. Zaki had book an appointment at one of the gynae clinic for Zaharah’s next check up. Occasionally Zaharah will sat by herself deep in her thoughts and feelings. Ana and Zaki however knew at times Zaharah need that space to be within herself to grief for her lost. She will stay in the room where there were lots pictures of Adam. Holding on to one of the picture of Adam she will sat by the couch and begins caressing her tummy and talking to it as though..she was talking to Adam. At times she will spend her afternoon at the attic until the sunsets.
One day Zaki came back from the office quite early that evening and he was searching for Zaharah almost every part of their home but to no avail. Until he walk through the garden and there he saw her sitting by the porch all by herself. Zaki came closer towards her and sat by her side. “Well nice weather isn’t it?” ask Zaki not knowing where to begin in a conversation.
“You came to see me not to talk about the weather right?” replied Zaharah with a smile. Zaki grinned and looks at the ground. His hair fall nicely covering part of his brow just like Adam.
“To grief is not a sin. To regret is a beautiful reflection of yourself…hoping that you can just turn back to the time and undo all your misdeeds. Acceptance…you need a lot of courage and spirit to let that happen and dwell into your heart." utter Zaharah as she focus on the blooming orchid which had been showing it white and purple petals.

"Such a strong and beautiful words you have got there." replied Zaki as he was amaze by those sentances.

"Those precious words..belongs to Adam. I remember he say those sentences in this park few weeks after both of your father passes away. He's heart was broken but he managed to buck up again and go through all the trials and turbulence which had befall him one after another. So I guess he had some how or rather left that good merit to this child in my womb." said Zaharah as she begins caressing gently on to her belly. Suddenly, she can feel the baby is moving and kicking inside her.

"I can feel it's kicking me. This child must have agree with it's daddy's words then." cried Zaharah excitedly. "Here you want to feel it?" asked Zaharah.

"You meant I could?" exclaimed Zaki with a wondering look.

"Why not..you are my child's uncle anyway." replied Zaharah as she took Zaki's hand and place it on her belly. Zaki was amazed by the baby strong movement and a smile broke on his face. And then he turn to look at Zaharah who was still having her atention on her belly. Zaki look at her with a strange feeling and he quickly drew his hand away and stood up.

"I'm so sorry Zaharah. I need to check on my reports for tomorrow's meeting. And by the way, please don't forget, tomorrow afternoon I need to bring you for your check up alright." said Zaki.

Zaharah nodded and stood up from the porch and they both walk back into their home. Zaki went straight towards his room while Zaharah decides to play with Aden in the nursery. Zaki lay on his bed and stared at the turning fan on the ceiling. That strange feeling which he had just now about Zaharah. He loves her just like a sister but he was afraid...afraid that brotherly love might developed into something else. He closed his eyes and begins to picture Adam in his mind."No I can't let this feeling lingering in my thought. This is wrong..I've got to fight it." thought Zaki to himself.

The next afternoon just like what he had promises the day before, Zaki came back earlier to bring Zaharah for her check-up bringging Ana along. At the examination room, while the doctor was doing the ultra-sound of the baby, Ana and Zaki was call in by the doctor so that they could see the developement of the foetus.

"This baby is a strong chimp can never keep still." cried the doctor with a smile. They could see the baby's head, the little fingers and toes...fully develope. Zaharah had tears in her eyes cause in her heart she felt the lost of Adam. If only he was around to see his child things will be so much joyful for her.

"Okay let me check it's ....alright..Mdm Zaharah get more pink baby clothing cause she's a girl" said the doctor again. Ana and Zaki was smiling gleefully upon hearing the result. Zaharah smile lovingly towards her belly and rub it gently. Soon the doctor wipe the gel of Zaharah's tummy and told her that everything will be just fine. All she need to be ready now is to prepare herself for the labour in two months time. After the check has been done, Ana took them to shop for the baby clothing and some of other stuffs, the feeding bottles, some baby napkins and lots of other stuff. The next day Zaki took a leave to set up a new nursery room for the baby's arrival. He had asked some of the painters to come over and repaint the wall in pastel pink and adding some sweet wallpaper on it to make it stands out. The baby's cot and the changing table too has been set up by the carpenter which Zaki had personally hired. While Zaki was busy checking on to the cradle suddenly he received a package from the maid. He took the package and tore it open and he was surprised to see some land asset and a bunch of keys. He read the content of the letter and he sank on the chair cause, it was the land which Adam had bought earlier before he went for the eye surgery. Not only that, the home had been rebuild and it was meant to be a surprised for Zaharah cause it was their third year wedding anniversary. Fear sets in as his heart felt heavy ...as he need to convey this news to Zaharah. Zaki picks up his courage and went towards Zaharah's room. The door was partially open and he took a peep. Then he saw Zaharah was holding on to one of Adam's shirt and held it close to her chest. This really breaks his heart but he knew he still have to tell Zaharah about this matter.

"Zaharah can I come in?" asked Zaki.

"Zaki..sure come on in." cried Zaharah as she wipes her tears of her cheeks. Zaki came in and sat beside her. He held out the package and give it to Zaharah. Zaharah give a wondering look as she took the package and open it. After reading through all the contain, she breaks down in silent. Zaki could not contain his sadness and held on to Zaharah close to him.

Five years had pass by and things have change tremendously throughout all of their lifes. Aden was in his junior school now and Aleeya, Zaharah's daughter had just begins her preschool term. Zaharah raise her child with full of love and joy...they are her new spirit,courage and hope. Although at times, the thought of Adam still remains strong in her soul. Even though he was gone but she still can feel him alife inside her heart. It pains her at times when Aleeya has been asking about her father but Zaharah never felt tired..telling her all the good deeds which Adam had done for her and his family. Ana seldom at home now as she becomes fully incharged of the ophanage home at her hometown. Zaki's has becoming well known for his charismatic and diligent after he take full charge of Zayeed's company.He lives in his own apartment but he still came by to Zaharah's home playing with her children and patting them to sleep. And then he and Zaharah will had some late night supper and involve in deep conversation.

"I really admired your courage Zaharah...you have done well. Raising your children single handedly..I don't know if I would be able to deal with this all by myself." said Zaki as he look at Zaharah. He noticed that Zaharah has change alot. She more beautiful...cause of the calmness and patience was written all over her features.

"Not without your ma, and ...you." replied Zaharah with a smile. "Zaki it's being years now you have been taking care of us. Now it's time for you to have your own family." continue Zaharah. Zaki looks at Zaharah for a while and then he looks away.

"I've actually found her...but I do not know if she's willing to spend the rest of her life with me." replied Zaki.

"Oh..really! That's wonderful..so who is this lucky girl?" asked Zaharah excitedly. Zaki give another intense look at Zaharah but he remains silence. And then he slowly held on to Zaharah's hand much to her surprised. Zaharah tugged her hand away and stood from her seat.

"It's getting late Zaki..I think you should leave." said Zaharah with tears in her eyes. Zaki stood up from his seat heading towards the door. "Please forgive me Zaharah..!" utter Zaki with sadness on his face and then he left. Zaharah close the door and walk towards her children's room. She look at Aleeya and sat by her side carressing her long straight hair and kissing her cheeks and then she looks at Aden..! Aden...the guilt about the truth. Zaharah opens one of the drawer and took a letter from it. The DNA test...!

"Zaki, no matter what...she still your brother's wife. I hope you know what I mean." exclaimed Ana sternly. "Zaki, tell me hornestly, do you have feelings for her?' asked Ana who had just return from the ophanege and decides to visit Zaki at his apartment. Zaki look at his mother and tears falls from his hazel brown eyes. "I'm afraid..the emphaty which I had felt for her had change into something else...I have..fallen in love with her."