Canvas Thee Thoughts - Wasting Wanted

 Canvas Thee Thoughts - Wasting Wanted

"You certainly sure about this?" Asked Ezra grimly with his sight piercing through the concrete wall. The concrete wall of a ran down bungalow.. 

Half of the roof is totally gone, with gaps and holes which could be visibly seen from few feet away where we stand. The walls were horribly stained with dirt, grim and algae..

"I need to know.." I state earnestly.

Ezra took my hand as we took our steps towards the half open door of the dilapidated crib.

"Ariel...it's me Ezra.." state Ezra with self compose calmness mark in his tone.

"Did you bring her...?" Cried a trembling voice somewhere within the rooms.

"Not her, someone else, someone whom you ought to know..." Mutters Ezra with sudden guilt stricken cross his soul.

Within the silence of the wall, I could hear the light footstep of him, Ariel my father. There he stood, just few inches from us. He had his sight upon Ezra then next his gaze falls on me, crippling my heart with fear and sorrow..

He amble himself slowly towards me, with written anxiety clearly mark on his sunken face. His eyes were so hollow and dark with anguish strike in his iris.

He held his trembling fingers and begin to gently stroke my hair. "Anna.." he whispered.

Maya my late mother's name.

"Ariel..this is not Anna.." said Ezra calmly. "This is Reem, your daughter, remember the one that I've been telling you before.."

"You betrayed me Anna...you betrayed me..you already kill me, and why must you come back...to cut me again.." roared Ariel furiously when suddenly he darts towards me. With his hands, he grabbed my neck clutching them tightly upon his wrist.

"No Ariel...no.." cried Ezra as he pulled Ariel away , grabbing his arms forcefully away from my neck. " Reem, wait for me outside, now go.." warned Ezra as he pinned Ariel down on the murky marble floor.

I took on my feet and ran as fast as I could, not wanting to turn back..not wanting to accept...

"What have my mum done? So much hatred and sadness.." jammed my mind.

"Reem.." mutters Ezra startled me from my sobbing daze. He held me in his arms calming my sobbing self. "It's okay, he will be ready to accept all this one day.. believe me.."

I sat upon the couch with riddling maze mapping my thoughts. 

"Reem, do eat or drink something..stop punishing yourself in such manner..." Utters Ezra as he place a mug of hot cocoa on the coffee table.

I remain silent but tears simply not wanting to leave me.

"Aaron took your mum and began caring for her because he cares too much about her ..he wants to protect her...from..." State Ezra.

"From Ariel, Ariel my biological father..? Protect her against what..huh? Against his madness?" I snapped furiously. "My father turns mental because of Aaron. You told me yourself, how you hated Aaron.. Aaron took everything away from Ariel..he's cruel..!!!"

"Certain things are best we just leave it out to rest...we don't live their lives, therefore we don't really know what had actually happened.." explain Ezra.

"Okay..okay I accept that theory..but why Aaron need to separate my mum from my real father..???"I cried as I stood and came closer towards Ezra.

"Your father, he's not well..." Stammered Ezra. "He has schizophrenia. It got worst when he almost hurt your mum with a cleaver.."

"No.." I stutter recalling my very own episode of seeing and hearing things, as I sank back on the couch with Ezra holding on to me. 

"Aaron mistake, for lying to your mum, telling her that your father is dead...when actually, he had place Ariel in one of the asylum.." said Ezra. "That's where I began to despise Aaron. And you know why I actually accept that engagement with Leia?" Continue Ezra glumly. "So when the time comes, I will turn my back on Leia, I want Aaron to feel what it feels like to be betrayed by someone you trust..." Paused Ezra. "Even God on my side, when Leia is stupid enough to mess her life as such..."

"All this while, I thought it was my mum.." I utters.

"Aaron drugged Anna…he wants her to forget, about Ariel, about you .. everything.." said Ezra. "I was there, I had to witness everything..hiding and keeping dark secrets from you.." mark Ezra. "I live in fear, constantly fear... if I were to leak any matters to you..he threatened me, he will place me in a juvenile home.."

"Ezra, you have sacrifice too

much for me..." I embrace Ezra tearfully..."I never know.."