Canvas Thee Thoughts - Fade To Ignite

Canvas Thee Thoughts - Fade To Ignite

"Reem.... Don't you think it's about time that you should just let it go ... set yourself free from everything..." those significant verbs just keeps pounding hard deep in my thoughts. And I feel so certain that's my mum's voice or was it Habil?

"Huh!" I rant with petrified form knocking my delusion senses out. And it was true enough, I had a kitchen knife in my hand and there was Habil looking absolutely dismay. His left arm was bleeding with a deep laceration cut.

"I couldn't have done this.." I mutters tearfully as I flung the knife upon the cold marble floor.

"She's crazy just like her mum..." yelled Freda frantically.

That rancid blurry note of confusion had unjustly dismantling my fragmented courage to million bits of pieces. With those teary eyes, Habil held out his arms as he came closer towards me.

"Stay away..." I mutters with trembling tone cast upon my chords as I took my pace and ran towards the door. 

"Coward and hopeless..." bark Freda.

And this time round I took on my heels and ran out from my home...which apparently doesn't really fit me physically and emotionally at all. When suddenly, I felt a light tugged of my arm and I just knew it was Habil.

I peer upon his injured arm with massive guilt embarking deep within my soul. "Please forgive me....I swear, I really didn't mean to hurt you..."

"Stay... and undo what's been clinging on to you far too long ..." mark Habil as he had his intense eyes staring hard through my frail mind.

"Just let her be... you are wasting your time dealing with that kind of narcissist being...!" Prick Freda sarcastically, as she relentlessly, trying to pry in hatred upon Habil towards me.

"She's right..... I'm hopeless and ignorant " I sighed with raging tears that keeps wounding my spirit. "Look at what I have did to you." I mutters. "You've got nothing to do with all of my setbacks but...it seems I'm dragging you along with it..."

Habil bring his hand towards my trembling fingers and bring them close to his heart.."It doesn't matter to me at all..." he noun. "Through setbacks, courage will bound to sprout...  you walk through them with kindle rays. A candle need to be burn, so light will be flare. Though in fade, you will ignite...." continues Habil with earnest note of determination.

Escalating exhaustion simply killing my spirit, shredding up my courage to million bits of pieces...as I push hard upon my depleting strength in wanting to safe my mum. Hope was not on my side, as it defers towards undefined fear. Fear that had accumulated and binding its noun deep within my soul. My inner voice was screaming out to her, but what voice could she ever sense, as we both might be loosing our souls deep beneath this torrential stream. Her eyes yelling out to me....telling me to let go, and free myself. Please forgive me? Was that her thoughts scripting upon the grey canvas of my mind. With that frantic notion mark upon her looks, she urge me to go before she turn her face away from my sight. "Mum!!! Mum!!!" Scream my inner voice.

"If only I could turn back the time.... I would make things right and fix what's needs to be fix..." I wept in between Habil's embrace. "I was a mistake....that's what she said..."

"But she still bore you with a significant hope..." mark Habil.

"Hope?" I sighed with heaviness sense of degrading courage.

"Yes indeed... hope to undo those mistakes..." noun Habil. 

I lightly shake my head for several times, as I let myself slip away from his embrace. And with that tattered soul, I just walk away. 

"I feel your pain Reem... because I've been through those nasty phase before..." mark Habil with that earnest persistent of wanting me to stay. "There's too many people that I've let down...too many of them. But I know, I need to let go of my rancid past so I could move on to something which is more worthy.... which I own myself far too long.." state Habil and then he continues, "Reem, you've make a good start actually... you've safe Leia... that's the worthy part of you being the hope..."

Freda who had almost lost her senses seems to be taken aback with Habil's sentiment. With my slight glance upon her, I saw tears raining from her eyes. Was it guilt, anger or redemption?

Dusk begins to touches in, as the significant rays of the glimmering sun had dims away. However, the presence of the eloquent breeze, had somehow or rather soothe that profound agony of my soul. I gently dress up Habil's wounded arm with remorseful thoughts amounting in my soul. Habil was kind enough to stay for another day, to look after my dad, therefore I could take the rest of the night out to be with Leia. Freda might be already by Leia's side by now, but due to her other personal commitment, (which seriously I do not want or just couldn't be bother to know..)will be leaving town for another couple of days.